Writing Process like a Pot of Soup


In the past few days I've not had my priorities in the right place. I've had time to read spam-y emails, junky newspaper flyers and bird watch. Woodpeckers, robins and blue jays are arguing in my yard right now—a squabble of colour. 

But I’ve not had time to work on the most important stuff. I guess that’s called procrastination. For me right now, my writing is the important stuff. I’m trying to prepare my Amber Stone for submission to my publisher and I don’t want to disappoint them. But I’ve been having some issues with the timeline and so I’ve been struggling and struggle leads to doing everything but, but of course the BUT is big on my mind. 

So while it looks like I’m procrastinating, my backburner is cooking on low and I must go to that pot of words and I must re-taste and add and delete and stir and taste some more. I’ve put in so much time and added so many ingredients. 

Hmm. How did that happen? My manuscript has become a pot of soup. Now that isn’t a bad metaphor for what the writing process is like. And if you ignore the soup for too long it dries out and shrivels up and all you have left is a burned pot. So excuse me, I smell something cooking and I must return to the pot. 

I'll keep my eyes on the birds, though. Woodpeckers, robins and blue jays are welcome to waste my time—anytime.

Snagged in the suburbs

Bolts between raindrops
stag poses in silhouette
snagged in the suburbs



That’s what I saw the other night while walking the dog in between thunder storms. It wasn't just a visual scene. More layered than merely something I saw with my eyes. Beautiful animal pausing on the slight hill in front of Oak Park High.

The new development in our area confuses the deer. Confuses me, too. My head knows that cities grow on land—that my own property might once have had buffalo grazing on it. And yet, I can’t help feeling sad about this change, about concrete replacing wildflowers, about street names replacing birds. A buffalo sculpture welcomes drivers into the new development—a homage to what was. 

The deer that still roam in frightened confusion won’t pause in front of the metal statues of the wild life of the past. They don’t appreciate the irony of iron sculptures. Only we humans can see that the deer of this neighbourhood have been evicted—their land expropriated for us humans. Someday we’ll name a street after them, or maybe build a sculpture. And like the buffalo…we’ll wonder where they all went. To last night’s stag…long may you roam.

Refugees

I grew up in a German immigrant family that carried a lot of silent guilt. Guilt can be heavy, messy and complicated. Small wonder that religion was so important.
                 
The word refugee was a common term in our house. The German word is Flüchtling (literally meaning: person in flight). Growing up, there were two kinds of Germans…the Reichsdeutsche (someone from Germany proper—they had status) and the Flüchtlinge (this word had a condescending feel to it). These were my childhood impressions.

The word “Reich” literally means ‘kingdom’ or ‘empire’ as in Hitler’s Third Reich. The Third Reich, was an attempt to rebuild after the failed “Second Reich,” (formed in 1871 under Bismarck with the unification of the German states) and ending with the German defeat in 1918. (The First German Reich was the Holy Roman Empire from 962-1806.)

My dad was a Reichs German and my mom was a Flüchtling. As a child, I confused ‘Reich’ with ‘reich.’ The noun and the adjective. To be ‘reich’ means to be rich. And this certainly was the case. The Reichs Deutsche might have had bombed out homes, but they still had homes. The Flüchtlinge had to flee their homes, their farms and their villages. They had literally nothing—not even photos, and few documents. For example, my mom had no birth certificate.   

There’s another term synonymous with the Flüchtlinge of my growing up years: Volks-deutsche. A Volk-German is an ethnic German living outside of the Reich. There were substantial German populations throughout Europe: Poland, Czechoslovakia, Hungary, Romania, Soviet Union, Lithuania, etc. In most cases, these people had been living peacefully side-by-side with the locals for centuries.  Hitler changed all that with his push for Lebensraum. When the war ended, the Allies determined that the best way to solve the German problem was to force all ethnic Germans into Germany proper. And that’s what happened.

Moving between twelve and fourteen million people (mostly women, children and elderly) identified as German between 1945 and 1950 became the largest ‘ethnic cleansing’ in history. It happened at a time when resources for the whole continent were limited. No country had extra food for millions of homeless, needy people. Consequently, it was an expulsion with horrific suffering. Because the ethnic Germans had benefited under the Third Reich there was little sympathy for their subsequent plight. Whether they were babes in arms or bedridden elderly, they were German and therefore they had to pay for the crimes of the Nazis.

It’s because of this guilt that their stories have been hushed. I’m not trying to judge the morality of this. Rather, I’m trying to understand the experiences of my family.  All of Europe was a quagmire of suffering throughout the forties. I’m exploring this ugly time of humanity because it had a such a major impact on my immediate family. Nobody would or could explain their stories to me while I was a kid growing up in the suburbs of Winnipeg.  

Image result for orderly and humaneHistory books never gave more than a few passing references to the expulsions. That’s why I devoured R. M. Douglas’s book, with the ironic title: Orderly and Humane: The Expulsion of the Germans after the Second World War.  It finally gave me a sense of perspective—gave voice to the guilty silence. It also helped me to understand the difference between the Flüchtlinge who were fleeing the Soviet advance in the winter of ’45 and the people displaced because of a desire for revenge. These people were forced to leave their homes, detained in transition camps and finally shoved into overcrowded freight trains and dumped into a bombed-out Germany.  The country obviously had no resources to absorb the millions of newcomers. The Allies supervised this ethnic cleansing, while Nazi leaders were being tried for the same crimes.

Politics matter. Let's make sure we don't vote for leaders who have hostile intentions against our neighbours.

Refugees are flooding Europe today—more than six million Syrians seek new homes. They will need to tell their stories, too and we must listen because it’s through story that we heal.

Top photo attribution: Bundesarchiv, Bild 183-1983-0422-315 / Donath, Otto / CC-BY-SA 3.0

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